cyberfields
09-11-2007, 06:17 PM
i dont know if this belongs here... but this is reflection that i had... i had to get it out and i felt like expressing it...
I have to get away from this place. This planet chokes the life out of me. The stars i want to be my new home. you know, i never really have known what a true home feels like. When i go to my house it feels like i am just anywhere else. Maybe it was my destiny to wander around the planet and universe. i dont know it just seems as if there is nothing left for me here. I've lost all most all of my joys in life and the only ones that bring me happiness are physical ones. now let me get one thing straight... this is not a pity party... just a reflection of what i have. I think it is time for me to move on to places unknown far away from georgia, and maybe one day Earth. just put me into a cryogenic sleep and throw me into space. Who knows maybe ill wake up billions of years in the future. in a finite universe i will evenually come back to Earth(ironically). Sometimes you just have a calling. I love the treasures of this world, but this world is not for me. it is for those content with a "normal" life. i live in a life, plagued by my thoughts. my mind is in constant motion. only one time in my life have i never thought but one thing. That was the happiest day of my life. But since that day is long in the past, it is time for me to move on and try to find something that could even try to compare to that day. Maybe one day, i will just get up and there will be stars upon stars and i will sit upon some foreign world. I guess all i can do is hope.
I have to get away from this place. This planet chokes the life out of me. The stars i want to be my new home. you know, i never really have known what a true home feels like. When i go to my house it feels like i am just anywhere else. Maybe it was my destiny to wander around the planet and universe. i dont know it just seems as if there is nothing left for me here. I've lost all most all of my joys in life and the only ones that bring me happiness are physical ones. now let me get one thing straight... this is not a pity party... just a reflection of what i have. I think it is time for me to move on to places unknown far away from georgia, and maybe one day Earth. just put me into a cryogenic sleep and throw me into space. Who knows maybe ill wake up billions of years in the future. in a finite universe i will evenually come back to Earth(ironically). Sometimes you just have a calling. I love the treasures of this world, but this world is not for me. it is for those content with a "normal" life. i live in a life, plagued by my thoughts. my mind is in constant motion. only one time in my life have i never thought but one thing. That was the happiest day of my life. But since that day is long in the past, it is time for me to move on and try to find something that could even try to compare to that day. Maybe one day, i will just get up and there will be stars upon stars and i will sit upon some foreign world. I guess all i can do is hope.